surrender

No More “Shoulding”On Myself

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Burning bushes have been speaking to me lately. As cold winds of regret whisper quietly in my ear…

“You’re not enough”.

“It’s too late for you.”

“Stop dreaming about more.”

And today I decided I’m tired of “shoulding” on myself.

Heared that term years ago from my Big Sis Meg. And as much as I’d like to say I’ve got the case of the “shoulds” beat-I don’t.

I should be writing in this space twice a week. But right now I can’t seem to find that clearing in my head nor time to be consistent in my schedule -but I’m here today and I always return.

I should have a cleaner home. But I don’t. And I decided a long time ago that I’d rather spend time checking in with each of my children on the daily than tidying up every corner and cabinet in my home.

I should have a book deal by now. But it’s not ready. Still. Not. Ready. Got edits from my editor and it looks and feels like there is still more to mesh, more to grow, more to layer, more to hope for. And as much as I’m struggling with this news-I gotta embrace it.  Pull up my sleeves, grab a new pen and fresh piece of paper and ask the one who is the Author of my life to take me through this process again. Once. Again.

I am His words-poured out. He gets to decide “the how” and “the when”.

My list of shoulds could go on forever-but I’ve had enough of the spinning. I’m sure you’ve gone there too?

Let’s reach out for more of  “surrender” and less of “the shoulds'”.

I shared more about letting go over in the Mudroom. So grateful for this group of writers who are keeping me inspired to hold on to my dream of writing-even it’s by my pinky-toe nail! LOL.

http://mudroomblog.com/saying-good-bye-my-ifs-and-my-onlys/

Here’s to the season of surrender.

Love y’all….

 

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Day 17- Letting go means TOTAL SURRENDER

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Surrender All

 

Can’t stop singing this hymn. Ending this Sunday in a very quiet place. Humbled to know how much I keep trying to hold on when Jesus wants me to surrender it all. Praying this song ministers to you like it touched me. Blessings ya’ll.

“I Surrender All”

All to Jesus I surrender
All to Him I freely give
I will ever love and trust Him
In His presence daily live
All to Jesus I surrender
Humbly at His feet I bow
Worldy pleasures all forshaken
Take me, Jesus, take me now,

I surrender all
I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all
All to Jesus I surrender
Make me Savior wholly thine
May Thy Holy Spirit fill me
May I know Thy power divine

I surrender all
I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all
I surrender all
I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all
I surrender all
All to Thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all

 

Dear God,

I know I don’t always give my all to you right away.

I give you some things and then hold on to many.

Total surrender means my hands and heart are completely empty.

empty of worry, stress, anxiety- this world’s system calls me to be drawn in and shackled up t0.

free of my own wrong thinking, limitations and expectations -my minds way of controlling, condemning and calculating, the things only you can do for and through me.

untied from people’s opinions, judgments and expectations-my hearts need to seek the approval of others often times causing me to shrink down or fill up to a false version of myself…

I surrender all because I don’t want to hold on

to this world, myself or others’ limited grip.

I surrender all Lord

because today I keep getting glimpses of the places you desire me to be

in Your arms free from harm.

…safely tucked in the bosom of Your will.

…gentle words of comfort being sung over me as You hold me near.

No one can love me like you do.

(Thank you CeCe for sharing your love for God

and love for gospel music with the world).