A Blogger’s Anniversary-New November

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Yahoo! This is your celebration
Yahoo! This is your celebration

Celebrate good times,come on! (Let’s celebrate)
Celebrate good times, come on! (Let’s celebrate)

There’s a party goin’ on right here
A celebration to last throughout the years
So bring your good times, and your laughter too
We gonna celebrate your party with you

Come on now!

Last night I celebrated my one year blogging anniversary (complete with the afro y’all-Kool and The Gang would be proud)! LOL!

365 days ago I etched the word “blogger” across my heart. And just like with every life changing decision, or call to deeper covenant that gets my heart pumpin’-hands sweatin’-fingers tappin’-I jumped all in. Inadequate. Unsure. Afraid.

But I did it anyway-and this space has changed my life.

Perfectly imperfect-with trembled fingers, I have attempted to share the contents of my soul. And tonight I wanted to take a moment to remember to celebrate. I needed to pause and re-connect-recommit, to my call to words and renew my love to the Author and Finisher of my faith.

But before I do-I need to first come clean.

#1. Lately I’ve been feeling like a fake.  An impostor of “the real bloggers of the world”. I’ve missed three months of showing up consistently in this place. I’ve missed it and I’ve missed you! It’s not that I didn’t try – I did. It’s just that life kept happening. A very, very, very busy life that I am still trying to grab hold of.

#2.And I feel like I failed. My blog isn’t as polished or as pretty as I’d like it to be. I’m sure the secret is out that grammar and editing is so not my thing-but I’m getting better. And I trust that when you see my typos, misspelled words and run-on sentences – you will proofread them with grace instead of judgement.

#3. I need freedom. Truth is, I’m still finding my voice, my niche, my rhythm. Some post may move you-some may not. It’s okay. This space is my virtual rough-draft,i n real time, of my real life and I’m not going to get it right all the time. I need freedom to scribble out the dark, broken and confused spaces of myself, my life and the world we live in. And as I write these words I realize I am needing this request of freedom for myself first, before I can receive it from others. So here it goes…

“Velynn, I release you to be free of your own insecurities, mistakes and broken places. I will be as kind and gentle to you as I am with others. Use your words to keep finding your voice, your healing and your offering to the world.”

New November and a NEW YEAR!!

Whew! I feel like a load just lifted. So here I am. I am back! And I am broken before you. Recommitting myself to a new November and a new year.

I will once again be posting 30 post in 30 days. I AM SO EXCITED!  Some will be very short and some will be very long. This month and this year my blog will be focusing on my four M’s:

  • Midlife
  • Marriage
  • Motherhood
  • and a Memoir

These areas right here are where my deepest thirsts and refreshed moments are dry or alive. Can’t wait to see where this next year will take us.

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Thanks again for riding shot-gun with me.

Let’s do it again!! Love ya!

Velynn

8 thoughts on “A Blogger’s Anniversary-New November

  1. Meg says:

    Yay! Congrats on one year! Glad you are back and honest as ever, that’s your strength. We are our own worst critic, maybe that’s why God asks us to die to self! Desiring with you the unforced rhythms of grace!

    • Velynn Brown says:

      I did it Big Sis Meg and you are right about being our own worst critic. Unforced rhythms of grace…. wash over my soul…. ♡ Thanks for always being such an encouragement and inspiration.

  2. Jenna Hatfield says:

    Happy Anniversary!

    I’ve been blogging for 13 years now. There’s always a reevaluating of voice and niche and purpose. You’re doing a great job–and I think your space looks lovely!

    • Velynn Brown says:

      13 years! Wow! That’s amazing. Thanks so much for stopping by and showing the love and the wisdom. I am at a place in my life where I am truly changing and in a season of transition. It is difficult and it is good.

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